A New Start

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 10:52:13 GMT

Long time no see guys

hows it going

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 12:08:13 GMT

yea, i cant explain the mood im in, nor do i want to think about it too mkuch all i know is that it is shit. first day back at work today, cant wait :(

oh well alls shit

x

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 10:40:02 GMT

I QUIT i actually quit!!!!!!

last day is the 26th of march, no more job // no more money :( //

but yea im glad i did it, despite my parents now being on my back even more than usual!

other than that im disappearing to bristol for a week at the end of march

that is all

x

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 12:37:44 GMT

i knew i couldnt hide from it forever, i should have known that it would get to me eventually, i was so sure id escaped it, but no i have a cold!

im still here, thou most lost still without my internet.

working lots at the moment but it's pay day on friday so i can get my new wardrobe :D

hope everyone is well, and had a good half term.

xx

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 15:38:14 GMT

HELLLLLOOOOO EVERYONNNE

hows it going in the real world. hope everyone had a great christmas and new year.

lifeis going ok in my world, working lots, spending more and more thou :P

oh well hope all is good

xx

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 20:15:46 GMT

I LOVE YOU BABE

You know who you are but you've made this year, through all the hard times, worth fighting for.

You mean so much to me...forever!

love you!

to the rest of you guys merry christmas, and good night!

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 12:59:16 GMT

hey everyone, i have my mobile phone back...it is the same number as before but i dont have anyones number so TEXT ME PLEASE with who you are, so i can keep in touch properly.

missing people lotsies at the moment, last christmas eve was so fun with every one round my house, but this year everything has changed and although i loves me mates so so much the groups have changed around again...... plan for thi9s christmas eve.... hmmmmm me think about that.

anyway i will stop moping and serve my lifesa purpose to jump on katie now

bye

xx

comment please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 17:42:22 GMT

u may think that just because i am not online i dont have people watching how boring this place is..

come on guys its chistmas, make an effort, just for those absent from lj

loving not being at school tis rather great...pay is good thou i need to start full time soon which is like GAY

love out to dave, whos my bum chum at the mo

love to ya all

keep the excitment up dudes

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Sun, 27 Nov 2005 18:38:52 GMT

No offence guys but how boring are entries recently, i mean that to no one in particualar, maybe im just not in with the crowd enough anymore but ys know lj used to be fun, now its just a habbit,

maybe when i get the net back we can liven the place up again hey sherwood and langridge ??!!!?!!!??!!

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Mon, 07 Nov 2005 15:22:33 GMT

hey guys

sorry i aint been around alot recently. comp is bust and mobile lost at sea... so communication is low....

going to london to see billy eliot tomorrow and staying the night so myself and my cousin can explore london on wednesday

im at a internet cafe in town at mo, i hate this lots

comp should be fixed tonight :D:D:D:D

anyway i best go

love to most of you
xx
xx
xx

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 13:28:35 GMT

Like Anyone Gives A Shit Anyway?

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 21:03:27 GMT

ok so youth group on friday was a downer, i was so excited about seeing a few friends from school and it turned out by the end of the evening i was glad to leave, so much can change in a week :( thou meeting up with lucy sometime over the next week should be good.

slept at katies last night and it feeels so much like sunday today. we had a laugh and a vvery big lunch before work today.

work was... hmmm strange. i wrote a poem in my break, which julie said was kinda deep, but then i guess shes only ever read my happy stuff. hmm that gives me an idea!!! :P :)

couldnt shake off my up tight mood tonight, thou managed to calm down within a few minutes of leaving work :P Lol

work again tomorrow and i reallt want a bath before i go in, dont really need one, but would really like one all the same... however i wont get on unless im up before nine, no thanks i have one in the afternoon... my bathroom is a biulding site.

here be my poem from work:

If my mind was made from silver
And my heart made from steel,
Would i still be living,
Your touch could i still feel.

If my life faded
Beofre my very eye,
No longer would you hear
My helpless, sorrow cry.

If my life,
Was short lived and cold,
Would it really matter
That i hadn't died old.

If through my death
My happiness saved,
Could you still cry
Over my grave.

Thoughts anyone?

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 20:43:29 GMT

i was bad

then i got sent home from work

then i was bad again

then god damn it askked to go back into work

then cheered up

then saw katie :D:D:D

then saw nan

then went down

meh

i hate feeling like this

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 21:04:36 GMT

how have a been this stupid

family dont care, my nan is dying and other than my mum no one is doing buggar all

i hate this

i hate people

i hate you

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 21:45:00 GMT

Freak,
so weak
Alone,
like stone,
Lost ,
at what cost
betrayed,
as she layed
Death,
final breath
Stolen,
heart swollen
Gone froever
forgotten? Never!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 09:02:38 GMT

so nans unwell, not showing any sign of improvement

you guys are all at school

i havent got work today

ill clean the house up for mum

ill start work on my folder

i might start sorting out my book

or i might just go back to bed

have a good day peeps

x

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 20:43:16 GMT

To Anyone

To anyone whose listening

Won’t you take my hand,

Guide me from this place

And take me to dry land.

To anyone who cares

Won’t you take me home

I no longer want to be

Scared, lost or all alone

To anyone whose strong

Enough for the both of us,

Won’t you reach out for me

For only you can I trust.

To anyone who’s out there

Won’t you come back to me,

Just to here the sound

Then at peace I could be.

To anyone that finds me

Laying on the bedroom floor,

Take me from this life

What are you waiting for?

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 13:51:23 GMT

wow i am so happy to have had my fears demolished yesterdat, ok so i was at work but nothing could have made me happier.

last night was fun, though maybe not

im in a stange mood toda, feel rather low, and yet strangely energetic.

oh me no know

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 06:46:47 GMT

So mum and dad woke me up really early topday shouting, well talking really loudly, i wandered into the kitchen gave mum a hug and realised my dads uncle and cousin were there, i mean OMG they saw me looking like this!!!

I have the job of coming up with some basis of a script today, as if i dont make a start on it i know it will never get done, and as the presentation is tonight then its best i do something soonals.

Robs coming round this morning so i guess i should sort myself out, and i will in a few minute, just right now trying not to move.

have a great day at school peeeps

x

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 11:36:18 GMT

so far today i have found great pleasure in desposing of the majority of my school stuff, anything that i personally cant use is gone...bonfire anyone!?

saw rob this morning gave his stuff back

have been to tesco

looked at a bath for £750 JUST FOR ONE BATH!!!!

and after eating my lunch i shall be going to clean and have a bath myself

that all i know what to wright for now

x

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 21:03:43 GMT

today was so sad, im meant to be happy to have left, but already the doubt is in my mind, but i cant go back now, im sre it will be ok.

i had my last adopt a teacher today. i took in sweets for the class and all the girls came up and gave me a hug good bye. It made me cry so much, and then miss fox said 'youve made such an impression after just a few lessons, you can feel proud for the good you have done' that just made me cry even more as i will miss her and the students so much.

tonight was well, different, and now im just coming up with a way to fill my day tomorrow.

cant think of much else to say

love and miss you huys already

x

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 22:02:52 GMT

< times like these :(

oh dear *cries* tomorrow is my last day, and after a few tears today i wont promise to be dry eyed tomorrow as i know i wont be for the most part of the day

its not that i dont love you
nor that i want to go
its just that i cant handle
the emotions i dare not show

its not that i want to leave
to leave it all behind
just that i have learnt
that i must rest my mind

its not thta i dont enjoy
the time i have with you
just that there is more
than a lunchtime so blue

its not like its forever
nor shall i forget a single day
for this is what has made me
and from my mind you shall not stray

lets not lose contact people, i dont want this to be the end...for those i dont see often, maybe we may see eachother from time to time.

ill just keep telling myself that

*bangs head on table*

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 21:25:35 GMT

wednesday is my last day ever at kesgrave dixth form, make th most of me while im still here#
i will miss you all

dicisions dicisions :|

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 19:33:44 GMT

seems i have so very many decisions to make, thou one that is the most important and will infact affect the whole of my life, my options are:

-drop out of kesgrave sixth form and transfere to another aroundour area

-drop out competely and work until newxt september and then start a levels at college or another sixthform

-just live with it as we are

help needed, suggestions please

x

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 07:12:50 GMT

oh well the weekend yet again has come and gone, at least i still have today.

work was a laugh yesterday, Ann is just mental...but such a star

once i got home from work i realised i had no keys and my parents were out at a weding, so i went to sherwoods house, ate, watched telly, and got picked up when they arrived. thus being tired now.

hoping to go to family harvest this morning as i havent been for ages, just awaiting a reply from kate to let me know if she can come with.

I GOT MY BLACK CORDS YESTERDAY

and shopping with lucy was so fun, got my head phones as well, thou quite how i spend around £7o pounds in the space of one day with only two actual items im not quite ure, thou it looks like no more spending from me until the norwich trip.

:D